Today I was able to attend church for the first time in many weeks – schedules get complicated and unfortunately, church is often one of those things that gives for me, even though I would like to make it to the front of the list more often. That is certainly my problem one that I plan to work on a bit harder in the near future.
Today the theme of the sermon was Disengaged, and it referenced how people can be part of a larger group, but not feel like they are part of the process. The three main question were as follows:
Why don’t I feel close to God?
Why I am not growing?
What is my purpose?
I found these three questions to be both alarming and amazing – they are three of the questions that I ask myself almost daily, wondering where I should go and what I should be doing. Funny, I even ask myself if I am still connected to God the way I felt that I was connected in the past. So as I pondered these questions today I felt myself better understanding that I may have lost some of energy lately, spreading myself too thin trying to do everything, instead of focusing on the things that are meaningful and purposeful in my life.
I am a doer – I know this about myself, and I worry when I am not spending my time doing things that I find purposeful. But it is easy to get wrapped up in doing a lot of things that may not have purpose or meaning, and instead doing things just to do them. When I look back at the last few months of my life, I have been very busy – running kids everywhere, taking on new clients, planning, organizing and cleaning. These are all things that need to get done, but are they the things that I should be doing with my life that make a difference? Am I contributing to the well-being of others? Do I make this world a better place with what I am doing each day?
I found myself answer no to too many of those questions, as I am sure many of you do as well. There is no magic number for how many hours we should be devoting to our own well-being, or sharing our gifts with others. I have found though that when I do focus on ensuring that I am centered and focused, the world around me feels settled, and I am able to give back to others that may need my time.
My goal for this week is to really focus on ensuring that I am giving myself time to focus on what is important to me – writing, meditating, walking or going to the gym, eating right and being patient.
How about for you? What do you need to focus on this week? What can you do to balance your life?

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