As many of you know, I am a firm believer that you have to trust in things outside of your own “doing” to live your life, a life full of promise, and a life full of joy.
I do believe this, and have always believed that Frank would be okay in this journey, wherever it leads us.
However, the medical portion of my brain that understands how things work, that had to see his labs and his CT scans, and know what his vitals were at every given moment, also lives within me. That part of me is the one that said “yes” when asked if Frank could be part of a research study as soon as I stepped into his room in the ER. That part of me has also had faith, but it is driven with a different part of my being. One that still believes that anything is possible, but one that also understands how the body “typically” works in some situations.
The process for the research study was fairly simple – Frank was administered a drug during the few days of his stay at the hospital, and that was it. There was some follow up with his progress and how he was recovering, and some thorough testing 6 months after the accident, but other than that, the process was simple.
The ongoing conversation between me and the medical professionals has always been that we felt that Frank must have received the trial medicine because his recovery, along with a few others that were in the hospital at the same time as Frank, was so unexpected. When someone does things beyond what we think their ability, or their bodies ability, can do, we often see it as a miracle.
And sometimes, we deny the miracle because we feel that medicine has intervened.
My faith in Frank and his ability to recover has always been very strong. A few days ago it was made that much stronger by a letter we received in the mail from the hospital. The letter simply stated that the study was no longer taking new patients, and that it was concluded that the medication has had no impact on the recovery of individuals with brain injuries.
I read the letter – looked at Frank – and read the letter again.
The outcome shocked me, and I am sure has shocked many that were monitoring this study, and that were hoping that this protocol would be available to others that suffer severe brain injuries.
Frank of course has no worries, feeling that he knows his faith and drive are what has pushed him to his best.
It is sometimes hard to reconcile beliefs with what you think you know. Sometimes we are told by the world that what we think we know and what we believe is just not enough.
Faith is an amazing catalyst for amazing things. We can have strong beliefs in what we have been taught, what we have seen, and in what we have learned.
And sometimes we just need to let go of everything – and just BELIEVE.