I sat down this morning to write a blog and I am stuck. It rarely happens that I do not have the ability to sit down and write something about how things are going, where we are, or what is new, but today, I am stuck.
I spent the morning working with many different people in Ohio trying to organize the Memorial Service for my husband’s father. Although a simple ceremony, it still takes a lot of phone calls and organization to put everything together. I am glad that we can be some help this way, since we did not get to Ohio very often to be with his family. It has been a pleasure having Frank’s brother here with us visiting the last few weeks. He spends a lot of time with our children. Being 16, I think just hanging out after the passing of his Dad was just what he needed for a bit.
I find that I have been spending a lot of time really busy, but not feeling like I am accomplishing anything.
I have such a short attention span sometimes. One minute I am happy with what I have done and feel like all of my signs of support are there, the next minute I feel like I haven’t done enough that day. I can tell you that it is ridiculous. There is so much that gets done in a day that I find it crazy that kids actually get fed instead of just dropped off at the 12 places they all need to go every day. I am a firm believer that activities quadruple in the summer. This is to make parents wish for school to start.
I have a presentation tonight and I am looking forward to it. The best part of the day that is not spent with my family is spent presenting information. Another great part is having discussions with people in the community.
I feel so lucky to be able to share the story of how we lived through a family trauma. Tonight is a discussion about TBI and concussion. My role is to talk about caregiver burnout. I find it ironic some days that I talk about this. Especially when I have personally crashed. But I think that is part of the message that has the most important.
As a caregiver, we can crash, but we can also get back up and start again.
And that is okay sometimes.
Today, I am going to take a break and go outside and pull weeds. Yes, I know it is really hot. But sometimes you have to reconnect yourself with the things that bring you peace – and that is mine.
Wishing you all some peace today.